Arhiva | iunie, 2015

No Sympathy

21 iun.

Dear ______ ,

Yes, I regret it with all my soul ! I regret the moment I placed foot in there, the moment I got so worked up for nothing. I hate it, I find it repulsive and I can’t stand to be there one more day.  I hate IT (word play, heh)! I don’t see myself doing this for the rest of my life : struggling to pass subjects that I don’t understand or do not like at all. I feel no sympathy towards anything that could be offered to me right now from there. I just hate it from the bottom of my heart. I feel like I have no strength for another day in there, let alone the next 3 years (at least!) that I’d have to spend there.

I won’t drop out, that’s not like me. The only one keeping me afloat is him with his passion and dedication; when  I see him that committed, it makes me feel like I could do it too. And I can. But I just don’t want to (see my grades this semester). No, I am not trying to find an excuse for my failures or low scores, but it’s just not for me. I was born to be able to do almost anything, and I can, but it’s no good. It just doesn’t make me happy. And now that he’s halfway gone too, I just find no reason to continue.

Mom, Dad, do not worry. Your perfect kid will continue to carry on with this. Just so that she doesn’t let you down. But I’ll never be happy about it.

Yours sincerely,

Lorena